Let's talk about a story.. My story..

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But, we're world apart.


I'm gonna stay at home although I'm not going to class tomorrow, doesn't matter much anyway. I'm planning on some movie trip this weekend or maybe next week but also, I'm leaving at 4am next saturday for the upcoming Tioman trip.. I need some super speedy recovery so I can leave without any problems and seriously, having a slight fever sucks; it gives headache and stuff.


I just started playing PS3 and Wii today in order to kill time. But other than killing time, playing this and that can save me alot of money. But the Cons, I never touch anything related to school. I need to start revising, maybe I'll start soon but, who knows? Motivations... Holy crap lol. Also, I need some rest, probably due to the medicine I'm taking, it's making me drowsy and sleepy as though I haven't slept for days. Okay, nothing much to add.


Ciao.

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Dad : Did it rain today?
Me : Don't know, didn't bother to care about it.
Dad : What have you been doing in school?
Me : Doesn't matter, I'm numbed by my surrounding long ago.


I'm sick of school seriously.. F.Y.I : I didn't choose to come back to suffer for another year of idiocracy. My decision was turned towards the face of ignorance.
IF justice has a voice, then do I have a choice.
Teachers alway think that we came back on our own willingness, well they're so damn wrong, they're blinded by what's on the surface of us and not the real decision in our heart, some of us were forced in fact, by our family. Some of us gave up on ourselves but so what? We still don't give a f*ck. Losers? If you byname us with that word, if we're really losers, what are those who seek for a shorter path in life?


But honestly though, I never really completely submit myself to "Defeat" yet, I'm still trying my very best to study although I know it's silly coming back for another year for Os. I can't find my motivation, this is killer, I need some motivation but it still bores me whenever I open a textbook or a sheet of those stupid papers. Of course I pay attention in class without complaining but sometimes, I can't help it when I got distracted by a little bit of talking. Yes, a little bit can be contagious, you won't stop until you really control yourself to that fullest extent.


I am seriously pissed off when teachers repeatedly cross that border of going on with the same sentence
"You made that decision to come back willingly..."
Of course, if we say it wasn't, you will reply us with
"Even if it isn't, that decision is for your own good!"
It's useless to speak for oneself when you doesn't have anyone elderly enough to support your decision. EVEN if we really fail in life, none has the ability to judge anyone. I always tell myself this
DON'T JUDGE PEOPLE/YOURSELF, ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE PEOPLE/YOURSELF.
Lesson should be taught regarding this matter be it that God exist or God doesn't exist (look, I'm not really a religious guy, but I believe none has the ability to judge anyone too).


And actually, things are pretty simple, either you take things that way or you take it the other way round. Judging people, how ignorant.. Have you thought about what others thought of you when you're judging others? Well I did in fact before I thought of judging anyone first.
MJ said "If you don't know a person well, don't listen to the rumours, find out the truth yourself, it's just ignorant to hear what people's talking about."
True enough but how many of us really done that in life until we realise we're truly wrong at the end of the day? Life, how careless and ignorant whenever we made the same mistakes over and over again..


P.S. I thought of this topic when a teacher kept repeating things like this and it seriously blow me up in the mind like seriously. I'm already having a huge problems juggling these and yet this matter is brought up over and over again. AND also, pardon such colorful post, it's more easier to highlight the keypoints like that hahaha!


Ciao.

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(9:23 PM) Boon Disquieted :
eh ass clown
doing your maths?


(9:23 PM) AO 王俊伟 : i ish very chui :
for what
LOL


(9:23 PM) Boon Disquieted :
LOL
nice answer

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Today is really boring, I stay home whole day doing nothing much except sleeping, listening to songs, eating and nothing else. I'm craving for Carl's Junior, Botak Jones or even Subway. Damn, need to stop spending money like seriously, pocket's really tight recently and I feel like buying iTouch lol. Tomorrow's monday, a bad day to begin the week with everytime I look at the calendar on sunday. I've got alot of worksheets to complete and yet I haven't even attempt a single question or worst, not even my name written on any. Oh man, I'm gonna start working on something like anything.


Ciao.

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Listing out the Pros and Cons of everything, but Pros is still more than Cons.



Today's awesome! Reach cityhall at 3.30pm and met up with Shaun first at 4pm. His tattoo is almost complete and it's nice! He should be getting enlisted by the end of this year and tattoo should be done by then too, can't wait to see the full thing lol. Ivan, Kingsly, Eden and Aaron came after that, follow by Cindy. We had NewYorkNewYork for dinner, a rather early and expensive dinner at 5pm and of course, we sat there eating and chatting until 7pm. Alot of things happened, like..

The "Turn-on" (INSIDE).

The "Area-Of-Effect Water Spit" (Shaun was really lucky enough to get that one).

And other things but keeping it inside and among ourselves hahaha!


Anyway! Went to Ivan's car to decide where to go.. Ended up going to Gamehaven instead! Took the 7 PC Room package and play COD4 for like an hour or more. But the computer there is problematic; E.g. Shaun's comp keep breaking down. Not the first time they're having technical problem with computers there, can't say that it's the best langaming experience place if you've been there several times, only good when you really have nothing to do and finding a place to kill time.


Took the MRT back with Cindy, reach home only at around 11pm. Might be having another movie outting by next week, or after I'm back from Tioman. I'm dead beat, I need more rest, if not this flu is gonna last for eternal. Might be seeing the doctor on monday again though, probably getting a MC for tuesday :/ MATHS ISH SUCKS, NO DOUBT.


Ciao.

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Today's class was great for me amazingly, I took an extra interest in them. E.g. English lesson; I gave in 101% of interest in it, giving alot of ideas/suggestion/answers for every question Ms Lim asked. BUT I think this will only happen for today because today's class is quiet unlike the usual, weird. Maths was horrible! I was cold like hell for no reason and my hands was freezing like ice. Lewis, Shannon and Zachary was amazed by how cold my hands were LOL and I decided to take a cab back home because I wasn't really feeling easy.


Took 10ml of cough syrup, 2 tablets of panadol and another 2 tablets of running nose medicine (FYI : I overdosed) hoping for a speedy recovery and I'm feeling extremely tired now.. Harry Potter at JP 8.30pm later, I need a nap first before heading there.. Shall post after tomorrow, for which I'm meeting Aaron, Ivan, Cindy and Shaun.


Ciao.

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I slept at 9pm without knowing yester-night and felt totally rejuvenated right after I woke up in the morning. Wanted to skip class at first today but decided to give it a "Go" when I realise I can't get into sleep anymore, thus ended up in school at the end.


The previous few days is neither really good nor bad.

Stop the habit of cycling and picked up walking to school instead.

My attempt to study over the years failed badly again.

Avoiding.

Stoning for hours without doing much.

Totally still sick even though it has been a month already.

Argh, school again tomorrow, nevermind.. Saturday's approaching! Meeting Shaun, Cindy, Ivan/Kingsly and Aaron by then. Hope nothing goes wrong! Been long since we had another meetup session for food/talk.

M' HAIR IS DOPED, I CLAIMED.


Ciao.

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Went out to meet Han at 7.30pm for revision but it was a waste of effort even after hours of struggling with my maths paper 2 yester-night. Finished almost the whole of paper 2 in roughly 2 hours and it was already 12 when I reach home. School was fine, Ms Ang was absent. A great thing to start the day with though, another set of paper 2 from some I-don't-give-a-core school.


Amazing enough, I manage to get myself to school via walking today instead of cycling (as I was lazy to) and I was racing with time when I got out of the house lol. Wednesday tomorrow, praying for weekends to come, so much to catch up with, friends and etc. Should be meeting Shaun, Aaron, Cindy and Ivan/Kingsly by this saturday UNLESS everyone have anything important on again. Argh headache! I need to rest, damn and I'm still sick lol.


Ciao.

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Lyrics | She's A Little Too Good For Me lyrics

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The day went well, met up with Jianan, Boon, Yz, Yl and Shannon at westmall first. Follow by Zach and Lewis, headed to Clarke Quay's Gamehaven for 2hours of gaming before we went for dinner. Dinner was supposingly to be at Plaza Sing's Manhattan fish market.. However, the seats was full like usual, so we went to Billy Bombers instead. Shannon and Yilong crack everyone up by doing stunts at Cathay before taking the train back, hilarious day at town lmao. Should be going out again tomorrow, busy weekends.. I need a letter, for friday. Maybe I'm seeing a doctor tomorrow, for MC? Might be, hah!



Their perfect stunt...


But..

When things go wrong, everything seems wrong, like seriously LOL!



After dinner..


Ciao.

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Deadbeat after around 5 hours of bbq. Not getting any nap in the afternoon was a total bitch.. Totally drain myself out during the whole 5 hours AND I went to school despite the rain, like miracle, I really did alright. I told Lucius and Han about "Weekly resolution" and this week's gonna be interesting, I told them I'll go to class this whole week. BUT I'm giving up on friday, I think I will skip friday class like again, because I'm very lazy to go school LOL.


Oh goodness, I need to get myself some cables for the router anyway. Using my bro's starhub usb port which is slow BUT it's way better than nothing at all. At least I can update something normal, I mean, a normal post.. Realise I've been posting abnormal ones recently lol. Something is in my mind lately anyway! Oh yeah, chinese oral was perfect, I skipped a couple of words and conversation turn out to be pretty well. Hopefully things will go smoothly in the upcoming days/weeks/months..


Ciao.

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Speechless, drought, commentless and fucked in the mind.

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I feel numb beyond words.. Chinese O level oral is just tomorrow but I think I really totally gave myself away. I've been trying to pull myself together lately anyway. Sleeping early is becoming an habit for me, maybe due to the fact that I don't have a internet connection yet although starhub's problems are fixed (for now), my router is pissing me off and I'm finding a longer cable to connect to my comp via the router.


Life's been terrible, it isn't what people think it is for me. Coping with issues that I totally hate to be stuck in, problems that gave me super indecisive dilemma's really a mind-fucked thing, I don't feel like I belong here sometimes. Chill-ed with Han around his voiddeck, heavy/hardcore metal.. It's the first time I totally absorb that sort of feeling for it, hating the world etc. No, I'm not going to do that for real but, it's true. Sometimes, these are the only pieces that can truly express what a person truly feel..


No, I am not emotional, getting emotional is pointless. Sometimes, quiet times are way and much more comfortable than spending anytime with anyone, be it family or friends. I need time alone, to reflect and to reprieve myself from all these. It isn't a time to repent, it's useless to do so.


Ciao

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I've moved, currently using bro's laptop to surf the net and etc. My comp doesn't have wireless yet and starhub's giving me alot of problems lately, I mean alot. Anyway, I need to get a wireless USB drive and also, I'll be cycling to class next coming monday onwards (AS I'm lazy to walk to school) thus, I got myself a legen- wait for it, almost ther-dary shoes.



(I know it's Awesome) AND I hate the weather, it has been raining at night, I can't find time to cycle around this place to plan a route (that's easier) for me to travel to school/out of this area. Also, I realise I left my school stuff at my previous house, I need to make a trip down by tomorrow or maybe early in the morning on monday, early like 6.30am.. Okay, I'm off to bed soon, slept 9pm last night and woke up 6am today.


Ciao.

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I'm moving house, around a dozen blocks away from here..

I'm not going to class tomorrow (unlike usual)..

I'm not moving on, not doing anything..

I'm not helping out much today..

I'm tired..

School has been really great, attended class for past few days but tomorrow will be exceptional, I'm moving house thus helping out and setting my room up. I have a picture in my mind of how is it going to look like but damn, I hope there's going to be sufficient space because it's quite packed.


This won't be the last time I'm moving anyway, I'm still moving to Choa Chu Kang next year (or maybe next next, next next next or even 4x next year) and so, I don't really need to bother about how is it going to look like. I'm so tired, cough is still on and off, can't help but feel irritated at times when it's on. It's time to let some things off here, and let this place, let it be memories..


Ciao.

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I am seriously moved and touched by Paris words.

"I just wanted to say.. Ever since I was born.. Daddy has been the best father you can ever imagine.. And I just wanted to say.. I love him, so much."
~ Paris-Michael Katherine Jackson, MJ's Daughter.

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Last few days was alright, I'm still living but still ill.. Did nothing much recently except giving myself more sufficient rest to get well soon BUT I'm still not getting "sufficient time" to get well, might be going down to doct again. Moving house on friday, so I have to cycle to school from next monday onwards and talking about cycling, borrowed sis's bike and went for servicing yesterday. I can't wait for recovery and I need a speedy recovery to study :/


Ciao.

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For fuckheads who think MJ's pedophile, but it's really too late.

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When you can't even provide yourself sufficient happiness, how are you going to ensure someone else's happiness?


Yes, I'm unconfident, dumb and silly.

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I've been thinking and cracking my brain lately, staying in my room yesterday for nearly 24 hours and not getting out of there makes me reflect on a lot of things. Things aren't really going my way lately although I still agree that I am dumb to have missed that opportunity when it's there.. I'm also still bugged by this question that keeps popping in my head..


"Was it a mistake?"


I asked myself several times but still couldn't come up with anything.. I am so depressed, so tired, so so tired.. I'm inhumane to myself, totally not giving myself enough rest or break I can have other than today's POA lesson. Yes, I'm suppose to study, but no, I feel dull recently. I guess everything ended up being "Easier said than being done.", what a usual thing.


I seriously need to start working on something, something like I've never done before to do justice to myself. Mr Ho was right about doing something you won't regret, by doing that, it's doing justice to yourself. I need to do that thing, just one thing, but I can't seems to find the courage yet to do it.. Some things, people tend to say that it's easy, it's simple, but when they're really caught up in that situation, "Argh, give me a break!" might ended up coming out from their mouth instead of what they always advice and never do.


This isn't really a normal post about my life, just something I want to voice out, to make myself feel more comfortable but I can't really post almost everything.. It's personal, I dont know who's reading or who's not reading (but hoping it was you), I said I think I like you.. Now, I don't wanna think.. I really do like you. You won't see it anyway.. This is torment, I need to control.


Pain can be controlled, emotions can be kept.
Well said, but it seems to be harder than I expected it to be.

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